While, "Meeting Asciepius" he said... "One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself”

I envisioned my father in this exercise, because even though I'm not his favorite daughter I understand everything he is about, all he stands for, all he lives for, and all he wants to die for.  I share the same connection he does between the outside world and us looking in.   I am my mothers daughter, I am my mother favorite and my sister is the apple in my fathers eyes but my mother can never understand the way I see things and why I do them like my father could.  The things I do I don't need to explain to my father he understands, and he gets its it on a different plane or realm of reality, my mother questions why, she thinks I have alternative motives, she sees and interprets things in a 2 dementional world. So when I did this exercise I kept my father in mind, he gave me reassurance, and strength in my decisions.  I recently decided to do something very big, I cut up my paid off all my debt and cancelled my credit card. I do not need it since I own a home and property in my name, I don't need credit anymore at least in this point in my life and I am about to engage in other decisions that will flip my life around and all the while my father was there smiling, saying nothing but just being, and I knew it was right. He didn't have to say a word for me too know that my decisions where not in vein but for my steps towards healing and growing. I did not lead my father into my decisions he lead me into peace and he lead me into reassurance, he lead me into  love, he lead me into acceptance, he lead me into truth, he lead me into seeking the potential hiding in me.   I now can lead those who want to follow because I have seen it I have felt it I have experienced it.  I may lose it one day maybe in the near future if I stop working through these great attributes and noble pursuits, so I know it can not last in this manner forever that's why I have to keep reinventing, re-energizing and re developing my true inner self constantly.  If I can not do this I can not show anyone else because it would be a lie, and my intentions would not be true to anyone so therefore my spiritual flourishing as well as psychological and mental flourishing would cease to grow and I so I would cease to exist fully.