Loving Kindness

I have to say I didn't like this audio CD because of the laud static noise in between track 1 then 2. It does disrupt the concentration of the mind the physical and the body connection. I lost this mental image of each and how to further my experience between tracks. There was just most much going on that I could not see this benefiting me at the time and I wouldn't really recommend this to others initially. But after being aware of the concept and how to integrate the practice of loving kindness I tried it on my own without people talking me through this journey. I talked myself through this practice and I focused myself and my good intentions and energy out to myself, to specific individuals and I have to say I felt a great sense of love and understanding. I felt good about what I was trying to accomplish. I knew that I was trying to get a sense of knowing that everything is to be alright and I achieved that by sending out loving thoughts as well as  prayers.  I do recommend that those who need reassurance, who need to know something more, something they can't understand or are struggling to understand try this exercise and although all the mysteries of the WHY will not be unveiled a great relief and a beginning of understanding can start, if we choose to acknowledge it.  Some may find this overwhelming so I suggest trying this with someone well trusted, and one who will not judge or laugh at your intentions but can honor them and also be able to help with the struggles. It's hard to ask people for help, I understand that most of all but I have finally found someone I can trust enough to let myself go around, and to be able to share true self with, without with holding anything and that person gets me through the bad days. But that person can also recognize my good days and praise them with me. I recommend this unity, this community practice when we can't bare to see it alone.    

My intentions now and hopefully for tomorrow

To rate the three areas of physical, spiritual, and mental wellbeing in my life on a scale from 1-10 is a bit hard because each vary daily. They are never constant! If I were always tipping the scale one way or the other or just straddling the fence constantly then I would be terrible unbalanced and boring even predictable.  While I may be unbalanced more often that usual I am not boring nor predictable that's why I get off balance. I get to wild with ideas at times and if I don't stop to think about how to successfully execute those ideas, plans or dreams then I can get very off balance and sometimes I will suffer the prosecution of  too much happiness with too much loneliness, because too much of one thing is not all ways good because it won't last and that fall is hard if I don't understand the in between I can get lost.  But if we are scaling these three aspects of my being right now I would have to say spiritual = 8, Physical = 6.5, Mental = 3. I have certainly been lower on the scale or spectrum in all three areas and I've certainly been much higher on the scale with all three. But I do struggle with my mental well being more  than the others areas. To improve each I will incorporate some goals that will hopefully elevate these numbers on that scale. This in itself would be a goal for me, it is a positive notion for me to try and to reach this within a week even a month will be a huge accomplishment. I see the little things and the details which are most beautiful and most rewarding, so to say I want to help myself and by helping myself I will improve my life and hopefully the lives and atmosphere around me is something pretty awesome for me and about me.  For the spirit in me I will set it free with dance, I will set it free when i'm in public and private by smiling, by laughing, by sending positive intentions out, by seeing the light all around and breaking that dark.  For the physical I am starting up a new workout regiment to train for a couple of races I have signed up this year, and I really hate showing up to a race unprepared.  So I am running daily, and working out with dance and weights, oh and my trusting bike!  For the mental state well that's a tough one for me but the best I can do is listen to my inner being, my gut feeling, my intuition and accept willingly with no struggle.  I will send as many positive thoughts out to everyone I know and love even for those I don't know but who will someday be intertwined in my life I will send out great intentions so there choices are strong and for the good of all, and that we will meet under good intentions and circumstances.  This is the best me I can try to be for now, and when I time comes that the number get higher then i will make more goals but if I reach these goals they won't be forgotten not now, not then and certainly not during all the while.

Crime of the Century

First off I was confused by the title in relation to the audio exercise. This audio relaxation exercise dealt with Chakras and the colors that represent those chakras, and where they lay in our bodies and what they mean. I am very aware of the 7 primary chakras of the body and the 21 secondary chakras.   When I meditate, I do so sometimes in colors which may represent the chakra or region of my body that I need to focus on because of an illness or distress.  I can not always see the energy and colors but when I fall deep into such a meditative state I can picture everything the narration was explaining.  This time during the audio exercises the images of colors came to me differently than when I usually meditate.  It wasn't as personal as I can usually make them out to be.  But it was still a great exercise to go through. I can say that  during this journey of relaxation I did indeed relax, and when I woke up I felt light headed. It was almost as if I hadn't been getting enough sleep and my body was going into that sleep state while being conscious.  I know my body and what all this means because I've been meditating for a long time now that I can recognize when my body is lacking certain things and, my mind was trying to relax as intended but it was also trying to compensate for my body not getting rest lately.  I really did enjoy this relaxation exercise I will try it again at some point this week to see if I see different images.

Relaxation via audio make me giggle

I was listening to the Audio CD by author Elliot Dacher, also narration with Harriet Cianci, sections of Subtle mind practices as well as Loving kindness In The Path to Human Flourishing and I couldn't help but giggle at the end of them.  First off like most people I can not relax to a strangers voice no matter how soothing it is, which Mrs. Cianci has I could not fall into that same meditative state or aware conscious state of relaxation with a water fall and flutes coming from my CD player.  I also was interrupted with a startle at the end of each section when it cuts to laud white noise... someone in the editing department doesn't understand continuous flow and transition and needs to take a meditation class or attend a real seminar which one of these relaxation classes are given so that he/she may understand the goal of falling into a relaxation state and coming out of one uninterrupted.    Don't confuse my demeanor as upset but more confused, I mean I got a kick out of the irony but why would anyone who is trying to reach a state of relaxation or go to the happy place where everything dissolves into beautiful landscapes and childhood familiarity want to be abruptly snatched away from that?  Yea that was a precursor of anticipation for the next relaxation exercise, I didn't really relax the way the audio tapes wanted me too relax instead I couldn't stop giggling, but in my way it achieved a different type of relaxation mode.  To me when I haven't laughed in a long time and can find ways to achieve this I'll just pop in the CD and get my results, laughing is a great medicine not one I was expecting here but all the while I learned something... send a letter to the editor, and when I want to give these exercises another go, I'll ditch the tapes and find a real relaxation class where I can feel the energy from human to human.